every year i do a year in review post. the past week i’ve been thinking about this post in the midst of being half out of it, and every time i would think about what to write about in my year in review post i would get these random moments from the past year in my head and as a writer i would see myself writing about the moments but then i would also see the reader completely confused and asking, ok, so what? maybe that is the type of year i had, i don’t know, but here goes my year in review post for 2012!
a few random moments from 2012
my world becomes bigger
i am on a bus and i am in mexico headed to my summer trip destination. no one on the bus speaks fluent english but the people i am with. at this point i have survived the border and we are a few hours beyond the border and dawn is breaking…i am asleep but then i wake up and look out the window and i see tons of cacti and mountains, and it’s far from what i expected the landscape to look like. it’s beautiful and serene, but at the same time i am like what in the world am i doing in the middle of mexico on a bus full of non english speaking people? two things run through my head. 1. i am single with no kids, and i don’t know when that status will end so i am FREEEEE to be in the middle of nowhere (not to say married people with kids don’t travel). and 2. i am making my world bigger, and that’s what i want to do in my life. connect with people who don’t look like me, speak like me, or believe like me.
i am like a teenage girl
i make sure i take a nap and then load up on coffee because i am going to go see the final installment of the twilight saga, with a group of women who are in their 20′s and 30′s. it’s ridiculous, but let it breathe. you know, let it live. what is the appeal? something extraordinary happens to an ordinary girl. and then there are cute guys. go ahead, start poking your holes in my argument. lalalala…not listening. on the ride home from the movie i get a text message from an old guy friend and of course i don’t reply because i am driving. but it all leaves me confused and dazed like a teenage girl.
a song comes on the radio
it’s one of those mornings when i literally don’t know how i’ve managed to wake up, remove myself from my bed, dress myself, walk out the door, get in my car, let up and down my car garage, drive out my neighborhood, and get onto interstate 20 in the right direction…the way to work. the other direction eventually leads to georgia and i live in texas. i’m so not feeling the morning and then a song comes on the radio. “our God is greater” by chris tomlin. and i know everything is going to be okay!
a lame goal gets axed
it’s like, what to do? what to do? new year, new possibilities. finally i come up with a goal for 2013! for 2013 i will not just “like” my friends status updates on facebook but i will make comments. everyone love comments, right? i will be the commenting chick for 2013. this sends my thoughts into a spiral, not up but down. where has my ambition gone? what has 2012 done to me? and so i think of something else. something less lame. when you don’t know what to do figure out a way to help someone. and so for 2013 i am going to help as many people as i can. it’s a simple goal but i think i can do it. like the barack obama t-shirt says, “i got this.” starting now, tell me what i can do for you. i want to help you dream bigger and accomplish more!
i googled it
i love sunsets and sunrises, and one day i was thinking about them and how i would tell the difference between the two if i was ever lost in the woods and went to sleep and woke up and i didn’t have a watch or a compass and so i had no sense of direction or time. how would i know if i was looking at a sunset or a sunrise? in this case if i was really in this situation i could just wait it out, give it a few minutes, eventually things will either get lighter or darker. clarity will come. on google i learned that you can tell by the hues.
and then just this morning
i woke up and started crying…because i want to do stuff. week before last i was terribly sick with a cold or something, then last week i had surgery and i’ve been resting and resting. AND IT’S KILLING ME!!! i want to do stuff. you know, stuff. incredible things! this and that. it’s a new year and i got to start it strong! i calmed myself down, and told myself i will get there. i will recover.
His countenance upon you
thank you for being awesome. thank you for reading my blog and connecting with me in 2012. i am sharing the aaronic blessing with you because i wish you all these things!
“The Lord bless you and keep you;
The Lord make His face shine upon you,
And be gracious to you;
The Lord lift up His countenance upon you,
And give you peace.” – Numbers 6:24-26
here is a handwritten note from me wishing you a happy new year! :)
* * * P R E V I O U S years
2011: never sit with your arms folded, because the universe wants to give you so many incredible things
2010: i am addicted to the challenge, the let down, and the pay off
2009: hello 2010, goodbye 2009